Here I am February 1st, 2023, and I’m wondering what happened? My life is so out of balance, my spiritual life is out of balance, and I don’t know why. Well, the truth is I didn’t really look for a reason why, I just kept getting further and further away from who I am and who I was created to be. I kept asking God to help me come back to where I have peace and joy in my life no matter what is going on around me. I’ve had a bad attitude about Church and what goes on within the walls of church etc etc. Slowly and surely, I’ve been creeping back searching and praying. Yesterday I went to the Prayer room for the 1st time in a couple months at least. While I was there, I realized that it’s not a magic wand that God waves over me to get my attention, but it is me that needs to humble myself and make the moves back to my place in the kingdom. Not that I feel like I lost my salvation or anything like that, just felt dead inside and to be honest a little judgmental of everything and everyone. SO, today is the first day of my journey, I thought I would document it and share it with whoever wants to see it with the hope that it will help someone else. After all if a man who pastored for 20 years can come to a place like this anyone can.